I have always been a rebel at heart; if I was told I had to do something, my first reaction was, “No, I don’t.” My second reaction was, all too often, to go the other way. I don’t know why I was (still am to a degree) like that, but that was (is) me.There was a time when certain people in my life tried to convince me I had to do certain things in order to be a Christian. As you might guess, this did nothing to bring me into the fold. It seems the more I tried to do the things I thought I had to do, the less I understood the reasons for doing them.
In His own way, I think God used my rebellious nature to make me into the servant He wanted me to be. He allowed me to experience a lot of the consequences of my own choices and rebellion then, when I was ready, allowed me to choose to accept His call. Now I gladly labor, struggling with all His energy, which works within me. The one thing I do is believe He is my Savior and allow Him to be the source of my energy and words.
I hope the words He allows me to write encourage you to seek His will for your life.